So, I’m at the point where I should definitely studying. But I’m not. And at this point I’m blaming it on the headache which I am currently facing.

It’s interesting, these are my last exams. At least in this phase of my career as a full-time student. And it’s the most stressed I have ever gotten in my life over exams. Usually, I just study a bit, go into the exam, write what I know and leave. But in this case, I am stressed. I think that it has to do with the fact that I have really struggled with being at Bible College. I didn’t want to go in the first place. But I’ve stayed because it’s what I was supposed to do.
Most people, at this point in the conversation would ask, “Why? No one is making you, are they?”. Needless to say, it’s been a long four and a half years. And I want it to end. But there is one thing that stands in the way; GREEK!

Tomorrow I have 2 exams, Wisdom literature and Greek. Wisdom Literature, well I could get 35% on the final and still pass the class. Greek on the other hand, I have a history of failing the exams. Which brings my stress level up. So much to the point that when I went to the dentist today, I wasn’t even stressed about it. And I HATE DENTISTS! I’ve had a couple experiences where they didn’t freeze me completely before they started drilling… this makes me hate them.

On top of my new found ‘liking’ to dentists, I have began putting off my other last minute assignments. They should only take a couple hours and I could have been done them a couple days ago, but I’m so stressed that I don’t want to go near them.

It sucks. I’ve never been so afraid of something in my life. I’ve never been afraid that I would fail so bad. Normally I just don’t care, sort of.
So what’s the worst part? The fact that more studying greek won’t help. I don’t know it. At least not well enough. And any studying I do merely stresses me out more. Not to mention that you can’t cram for greek or any language for that matter.