It’s kinda funny, I’m learning about my blogging style. It seems like I go through these phases; one day I want to blog every hour, then a week later I don’t have any motive to blog.
Well i’m working my way through it. I’m slowly unloading assignments as I put the effort and get them done. That’s good. But I still have a long way to go. This last week has been positive, I feel like my head has finally cleared and I can breathe again.
But outside of all that I’ve been having fun.
This last weekend I was fortunate enough to show my support for my Big brother. His band shot part of the music video for the single “Shout It” off their first full length album. (www.sweetheartband.com) It was a great experience. Of course I’m probably going to be kicked out of school for dancing (Just kidding, my feet never left the ground).
Then on Sunday I actually went on Tour! Well I’m calling it that. I was invited to join one of the school’s performance group for an evening concert that they were performing in chilliwack. So it was my debut singing Opera. Managed to pull it off, and it was fun.
Other than that, I’ve been interning at Connaught Heights Pentecostal Assembly. Learning how to be a Pastor, and what an intern can and cannot get away with (hehe). “Just blame the intern” Next sunday is going to be fun, I’ve been given an oppourtunity to preach. So if you want to hear the World’s shortest sermon, come and visit us 6:30 Sunday Nov 26th in New Westminster.
The Irony of Blogging:
So I am learning that blogging is increasingly filled with Irony. Bear in mind that I sometimes use bad terminology to describe things.
Blog Names have nothing to do with the content or premise of the blog.
For Example: This is the “almost Weekly Report” it should be the “almost never report”
OR
You think that people never read your blog, and then the most random people post comments.
So I know what you are thinking… Ok… Caleb that’s like only two areas that Blogging is Remotely Ironic. And REMOTELY, if at all. Here’s the point. Apparently people actually READ my blog. Well more or less check it because lately I haven’t been posting a lot.
Well this is where I am at….
I am finally feeling the pressures of school. This is the “Crunch” month. I have greek which is a daily undertaking, I have 8 papers which I would like to have done by the end of the month. I have Piano and Voice lessons, for which I need to practice every day. Then there is the Fact that I finally found an internship, which I need to dedicate at least 15 hours to every week.
In all of this I find myself questioning if I might have gone a bit overboard.
Here’s why: This summer was quite incredible. For those of you who haven’t heard the story, you can can read part of it in the Summit Newsletter. (i find this amusing). But basically, outside of all the practical ‘stuff’ that I experienced, God brought me to a place where I finally surrendered to his Grace. I can’t explain this in human terms. But what this meant is that I came back to school, recharged and ready for anything. So what did I do, I tried to do everything. Relationships, with Friends, Family and God; Step out into leadership via Internship; Minister using my skills as an ‘Almighty’ Sound Tech. And what happened? It broke. Everything. the relationships, my self-managing skills… Everything. Including my car which now has a dent and needs a $500 deductable.And because of this massive undertaking and distruction of self, I collapsed. Not literally, but in every possible way except for physically (and yes I have been getting stress migraines). Which brings me to this weekend.
Friday, I found out that I will have to pay the $500 deductable that I barely have. I also went into this weekend expecting to spend at least $50 on food and gas because of various events which were unavoidable. Regardless of anything, the fact that I am a student makes this an issue. Well, what happened? God taught me. Thursday, I realized that I need to stop focussing on what I want to do, or what I need to do. Why? because of that wonderful I word. Note that the Letter “I” appears in this blog over 176 times. It’s a big word for me.What happened? I ended up paying for 1 meal at a restaurant, out of 4.5. God through the people around me provided for a need. And this was a BIG encouragement, because for the last few months I have been running around neglecting that which God wants me to do, and replacing it with the stuff I thought that I needed to do. I took on the wieght of the people around me, and papers, and … and… I think you get the point.So where does this leave me? Well i still have 8 assignments to complete by Nov 30, 1/2 hour of greek and 1 hour of music practice every day, 15 hours of internship… and all the other stuff. But I know that as long as I focus on what God has called me to do, I won’t need to worry about it.For me this is a BIG revelation.